Mercy
Mercy.
That’s the operative word for me in all of this.
Processing this entire incident has been a little bit strange. I sometimes get the idea that I should “feel something”. Make great changes in my life because I was inches away from being a greasy spot on a Mongolian road. There’s a part of me that trembles every time I see these pictures, and another part of me that looks with the casual interst of a stray cat.
I remember it well. Most of it, anway. I can still very much hear the sound of rubber peeling off the tire and see the treads being thrown all over the road, shooting past the car. I can remember consciously trying to stay calm in attempts to keep the car on the road. I don’t remember hitting the brake, even though I’m fairly certain that I locked them up, which was what sent us into the skid that finally took us off the road and flipped the car. I remember turning upside down quite vividly. I remember the relief I felt when I heard everyone in the car respond verbally that they were okay. I remember being somewhat concerned when I realized that there was a lot of blood coming from my own head, wondering if I’d managed to scalp myself. I remember being quite grateful that there was a poiliceman on the scene (even though I must have seemed very dazed and shell-shcoked to him), and even more grateful later when I found out that he was a top guy in the Mongolian Secret Police.
In the processing of what happened, I question if there was, or if there was not suppoed to be some kind of serendipitous moment in it all. Am I supposed to change my life forever? Do I now write a “bucket list”? Do I need to now do something profound with my life? Again, there is a part of me that seems uncannily unconcered; another part that stands in amazement.
I know I was shown mercy, as were my children and the Manchester family in the car with us. I know mercy is renewed every morning - but on this day, mercy abounds from the ground up. The Mongolians all see the car and ask, “How many died?” To which we reply, “None. God, in His mercy required none of our lives. We can continue to live and serve for a while longer.”
Here’s the interesting thing about the place where this happened. When we returned the next day, we found that this vicinity contained many of the tell-tale blue flags, tied to the trees and the nearby bridge. We then found out the that two other cars were in accidents in this same are within 24 hours of our incident. The next week, a team member was traveling through that area and reported that the road was closed because a shaman was performing ceremonies in the middle of the road. Obviously spiritual activity in this area is somewhat profound. I think of these verses in Mark 10:28–31
And do not fear those who kill the body
but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him
who can destroy both soul and body in hell.
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?
And not one of them will fall to the ground
apart from your father. But even the hairs
on your head are numbered. Fear not, therefore;
you are of more vlue than many sparrows.
My hair count should be little easier to keep up with … as I’m fairly certain that I lost a few in the spin and subsequent road burn on the scalp. However, I think of this passage and know that God is a merciful God. If we have enemies who try to take our lives, He will stay his hand … and we will not fear. And even if it were our time to go, we still will not fear, because we live in the mercy of the cross. So it is as we sang in church last Sunday:
The body they may kill
God’s truth abideth still
His Kingdom is forever.
I believe this.
I wish to live this for whatever days I may have left and I’m so grateful that eveyone in the car, my children in particular, has the opportunity to live this in their remaining days, as well.
So we have a few more.
That’s mercy.
And I’m grateful.